Picking a monologue to recite was difficult. In my memory there were lots of monologues that I had previously felt I would be comfortable saying. But in reality? There weren’t many. I was picky. This one is too angry. This one is too sad. I was at the table looking at monologues forever. 

I finally settled on Because He Liked to Look At It. It felt like something I could recite out loud in front of an auditorium full of strangers. I walked into the room when I was ready and awkwardly began to read the piece. I didn’t know if they wanted me to just jump into it and read right away or tell the title first, so I just jumped in. There was a long pause. 

And… it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be at all. I think because I was so nervous, my mind did this weird out-of-body thing so I wouldn’t focus on how twisty my stomach felt. I stumbled over the word vagina once, Saying “va-gy-gina” instead. But that was the worst it got. I made it through and got some looks of approval from the audience. I didn’t die up there. No one laughed at me. Success.

Honestly, I am incredibly proud of myself. To some of you it probably doesn’t seem like much. But, it was something I never thought I would do – I am just that introverted. Through this experience, I learned that my death won’t come from reading a monologue filled with the word vagina in a room of strangers. TBD Adventure #1, complete.

What do you think?

Do you like this new series idea? What other bucket list-type items should I attempt next? What’s on your “I’m so scared to do this but I want to do it anyway” list? Tell me in the comments!